Collector's Edition in limited edition. Order now! Collector's Edition with unique finishing: special cover with relief varnish and open paper, black-and-white illustrated front and back matter, and four-color interior pages. A romantic comedy and a must-read for all fans of darkviktory and Kostas Kind.

When 17-year-old Damian is completely honest with himself, his relationship only makes him semi-happy. Especially since his girlfriend Emma is pressuring him to finally have sex. The problem is, he doesn't feel physically attracted to her at all. However, it's a different story when he thinks about boys. But is he really gay? And how is he supposed to find out without cheating on Emma?

He needs a sex toy – preferably anonymously packaged, so his mother doesn't find out. But when he responds to a classified ad that his peer Emil posted as a joke, a chat soon develops between them that will change everything. Authentically, sensitively, and with a lot of humor, SPIEGEL bestselling author Marik Roeder, aka darkviktory, and Kostas Kind, content creator and activist, tell a story about the search for one's own sexuality and the hurdles of coming out.